"Sometimes you just need to cry and be sad. You need to break down and be torn apart. You need to learn now to pick yourself up and put yourself back together. Sometimes, the only way to be happy is to give into sadness first, cause without sadness, there’s no happiness, you would never learn to smile.

-how do I ever learn to pick myself up when no one around me allows me to break down and be torn apart?That's what I am living in.Being a puppet again.Friends are all I've got.If they doesn't want to see me sad,I'll put on a smiley face,when deep down inside I just want to be alone and drown myself in my sorrows.What else can I possibly do?I'm lost,without a goal in my life.I no longer know what's best for myself.I no longer know what I want in life.I just want to run away from the pain that I caused myself.

I just want to run away.