Birthday celebrations

I know I've not been keen on updating my blog, a big part of it being I was too busy with my birthday celebrations with different bunch of peoples.On Thursday, which was my actual birthday, I went out with my college friends to Hajime for lunch.Unfortunately,we went quite late and the place was packed,and the service was lousy as the staffs only can manage small crowd.I wanted to try Sea Urchin sashimi that day but unfortunately it wasn't fresh so they wouldn't and cannot serve it.Then due to the overwhelming crowd,the salmon was sold out!Like wtf sial,everything I wanted also not available.Then I got a bit disappointed because I don't get what I want for my birthday ):.

After lunch,me and the bunch headed to Curve for a late karaoke session.And jinx enough on my birthday, it was fucking jam everywhere.It took us like one and half hour to reach Curve.But we had an awesome time in the karaoke.And I'm happy!

Dinner, went to Tenji with baby bug.At first he lied to me say he never have the time to get me my birthday present,but actually he bought me an Ipod Nano 4th generation as he knew I've always wanted to change my mp3 player which my ex gave it to me like...5 years ago.The day before my birthday,I was actually checking on Ipod Touch and the next day I get an Ipod Nano.Awesome!

Food in Tenji was actually quite okay despite the negative feedbacks I've heard.But I think it is rather pricy,with RM101.20 per pax.Well,it is actually RM88++ per pax but with tax and stuff,it is actually the same price as Jogoya.Frankly, with the current Jogoya's food standard,I'd rather visit Tenji.

Soft shell crab and pumpkin cake.Both also very nice,especially the soft shell crab.It is very meaty compared to those I've ate before.



Our all time favourite,fresh oyster with touch of lemon!


Fresh boiled prawns and octopus sashimi!



Bamboo clams and I forgot what fish already.This fish is very special because it has no meat but eggs.Inside the stomach is filled with eggs.



Teppanyaki mushrooms and beef wrapped with enoki mushroom.Both dishes tastes very good too (:



Dessert - Chocolate marshmellow,which I didn't like quite well because the marshmellow was hard and they doesn't melt inside your mouth ): Left - chocolate pudding and right - Tiramisu.Only the chocolate pudding was edible.



Tenji serves young coconut as well and they are really good.Besides that, they also have variety of drinks from iced teas to really good espresso (not like I drink,but bug does).I am so in love with their lavender tea!Also,they do have free flow of Haagan daaz ice cream.Belgium chocolate is one of it and I love belgium chocolate!

On friday,basically I rotted at home until at night,I got myself prepared to go poppy.I had my birthday party celebration there and it was absolutely awesome.All thanks to baby lynn,Reychel dear and whoever that came made it so happening.First 15minutes of my arrival, I had to down 4 cups already because everyone was trying to make me drunk.I also had one flaming Lamborghini and champagne,and the best part was I had an empty stomach before I got there.I didn't have the chance to have my dinner due to some last minute changes.I got high really fast and yeah the gastric was bad.Eugene made the MC shouted my name and greeted me happy birthday so many times and they even got me a chocolate cake too.Thank you so much people for making my birthday memorable (: I really had fun that night and now I wish I have another birthday bash there.Like everyday!

On the side note, it is a tradition in poppy where the birthday person gets thrown into the pool.I met Karmun there and he almost had his manager friend to throw me into the pool and I was practically running around the whole night to avoid getting thrown into the pool.But it was still fun and I was so messed up.Like totally a soh poh just came out from don't know where.

Saturday!Spent some time with my babies and then dinner at Cafecafe with kakak and abang.Their treat!And thank you abang for settling the bill,thank you kakak for the lovely cake!

Cafecafe, located near Hang Tuah,serves Western food and their food are quite good I could say.But it is rather pricy,one dish minimum like RM30?Once in awhile go there should be fine I guess.Everything at moderate is good for both health and your wallet! (:

Chef's special,omelet roll with cavier, and baby potato with mayonnaise.Only available when you order their set!



Kakak's risotto porcini.Rice with mushroom and black sauce.It is good but I think it is very filling and it tasted very salty after it got cold.



Abang's lambshank.Very nice,don't have the lamb smell that I hate.And below that lambshank is mashed potato,and my flash is too kao already.Everything become white /swt



My carbonara penne,very nice and creamy (:



Desserts - lemon pie.We all didn't like it because it tasted a bit weird.The lemon was super sour and I think they used goat cheese and it was...funny.The whole pie just tasted funny -_-



Tiramisu!So far the best I've ever tasted.RM23 for this T_T

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Kakak's home made chocolate marshmellow cake for me /lv Love it!Thank you kakak for the lovely present!



Sunday!Went to Hajime again with Fuzz at dinner time because I wasn't really happy that I didn't get to eat sea urchin and salmon on Thursday.

Finally!The long awaited sea urchin sashimi!Although it wasn't fresh but we still gave it a shot because I think I was quite desperate.Thank you heng! XD



Scallop sashimi as recommended by baby lynn.It was absolutely awesome!



The total bill for the dinner XD



Thank you everyone for the lovely wishes and celebrations!

Your call

The title has nothing to do with this entry.I guess throughout the years I get more and more protective of myself and yes,I hardly even pen down my own personal thoughts anymore because I doesn't want people to know.But I can't stay like this forever.I am sucking in so much to myself and I meet the bursting point more frequent than I usually do.When I burst,I breakdown,depress,cry,blame myself for my stupidity,for what I thought I could handle,for what I thought it was best,I blame myself for being so heroic and blame myself for overestimated myself and underestimated what something or someone meant for me,and what they have made me become,someone I am today.No one have to know it as long as they are happy.One person bearing all is better than spreading it to the others,because it will only bring sadness to others.

Even my not so close college friends commented that I am less chirpy and hyper these days.Am I not the same again?Could it because I'm just tired of being chirpy all the time to entertain and keep everyone happy,or that incident really affected me this much?I am not sure,and it will be painful for me to look for the answer.I don't want to,I am afraid for the answer.People say time heals and time will tell.Time is the key to everything.Does it really help?Time heals,time cures,time eases,or does it simply just helps us to forget?Perhaps I am too old now.The wound heals very slow these days.Does it explain why my legs have many scars now?

Crying,getting depressed is a sign of weakness to me.And I hate being weak.How I wish I can be strong at all time and at anytime I want.But nothing can make me strong now.I am just leaving it to die off, and I am tired of getting myself up,and then go through the same circle again.Yes...but ironically this is what life exactly is isn't it?Go through the same circle of obstacles and it will make us stronger,or so they say.Could I say that my view of life is this :- our lives is like a pencil.We starts with fresh and unsharpened, throughout our journey, we write many journals.Whenever one end of graphite finishes, that is the end of one chapter; we rest,gather our thoughts and courage, leave out the pain and, sharpen ourselves again and we move on to write another chapter.Throughout the process of writing journals, we might meet things or people that helps us to regenerate, or the other way around, things or people that make us need to sharpen ourselves more often than usual in writing one chapter.But you see,we are not regenerating as quickly as how we are sharpening ourselves.So, we are getting shorter and shorter each when chapter ends.And when we gets short,it mean we are near to the end.

And I think life is exactly working like this.When we gets old, we heals slower.When we gets shorter,we heal/regenerate slower as well.So at the end of the day,when we are near the end, the only thing we could do is to leave it to die off.Very pessimistic view of life,I know.People always say we can gather ourselves and stand on our feet again, just whether we want to or not.Nothing is impossible.And this is exactly how I used to view the world last time.Nothing is impossible,as long as you have the will to do it.But today,I finally get to feel the feeling of unable to do something,no matter how bad you want it.It is just out of your hands,and nothing you can do to help it,to make it yours,to make it come back, or to make it stay.

I'm just sick of pretending to be strong for everyone.I'm just sick of pretending all chirpy and happy just to make people around me happy.But I hate to see people gets so worried about and each time I just have to put on the mask again to make them not to worry about me.I have to pretend that I have already move on to make them feel alright.In my whole life I have been doing things for people,hardly any for myself.And this time,I really wanted a tattoo for myself,but I care about the consequences of how others would feel and I don't want to regret it because of others' negative comment about it.I'm just the world's biggest loser.I was supposed to get it done by this coming Wednesday, as my birthday is on Thursday.It's not coming true,and I don't know when it will come true.I guess, dream will always be a dream.

I'm listening to Secondhand Serenade - Your call.
I guess,this song really portrays what I feel now and how helpless I am.And it is very nice too.

Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry
call I'm desperate for your voice
Listening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember
Butterfly, Early Summer
It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet
Like when we would meet

I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Stripped and polished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Cause every breath that you will take
when you are sitting next to me
will bring life into my deepest hopes, What's your fantasy?
(What's your, what's your...)

I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
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(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything)